I am coming along

It is only just amazing to me how much of this is just psychological and how much is physical. I ate so much candy since Valentine's Day that I made myself sick. That's pretty sick. Of course I don't get it why someone who loves you would give you (me) all that chocolate, but we can save that discussion for another day. Ciao, M.

Today is the Day

I am glad I have this blog so I can stay focused. The level of stress at work is becoming too large again. I am pretty much working 12 hours a day, nonstop. Everything gets out of balance and I don't have time for myself. I think I will try to create a schedule and commit to it for me. Like I can schedule the things I need to do for myself daily. Then I have to stick to it no matter what comes up. I always let the things I do for myself go when other things come up. I can see how I learned that as a kid and that strategy is so unwise. Well that's my plan for today. I will let you know how far I get with it. M.

Brutal Honesty

I have not got your guts. I am so not posting my current weight. The fact that I can even admit to being in the 2's is pretty amazing. I have a different goal for myself. I want to learn how to fill this endless hunger of mine. No amount of food has ever satisfied me. I realize that I substituted food for so many things in my life and I now it's difficult to get away from that. I hope I can become as in love with learning and being happy as I have been with eating. We shall see.

BROS GOALS

WHAT DO I WANT TO ACCOMPLISH

1.Lose weight – I am currently at 257 lbs and would like to get below 200 lbs.

HOW TO GET THERE

2. Diet - To achieve my weight loss target I should consume an average of about 1,800 calories a day to reach my goal weight of 200 lbs by December 31, 2012.

3. Exercise – I need to begin an exercise program.

MY PLAN FOR THIS BLOG

4. 4. To track my progress in limiting my calories to 1,800 a day and to increase exercise this year.

The concepts are easy it is the doing that is tough.

Finding My Way Bro

Sorry it took so long to send you the info to get into this place. There was a huge windstorm
in the desert and it feels like there has been one in my life. Anyway, Mr. G. came to the desert
this week and I showed him my favorite Israeli restaurant. He and his wife ate hummus with shawarma and Israeli salad and portabella mushrooms. The shawarma is made with turkey so it
really isn't so bad.
Before we went to eat we talked about my desire to change careers. He said he will help mentor
me as I attempt to leave my present career in education go back to food service. I realized that working with food had been my original choice of careers and that I didn't give it enough of a chance. I got all the way to having my own little kitchen and it was in South Coast Plaza, but after that I went no further. I got out of food service even after all I did to get that far. Maybe that was a mistake. Either way, I think maybe I am older and stronger now and I can go back to that career. Maybe I can build a career on that. We both know how much I love food, to a fault.

Wild Bird Visits & High Blood Pressure

After we agreed to blog about our weight loss attempts, I went out to see a woodpecker pecking away at my outside wall or his outside wall. I put seed out for the birds after that. I went
to the grocery today and bought meat with high sodium which I know is wrong. That's the first thing I want to do better about--high blood pressure. I know that one is the worst for diabetes. Nature out here in the desert really is good for my blood pressure. Mary

Helping Michael Moore

Last month's issue of Spirituality and Health contained a request from Michael Moore that if we wished to help him, we would become more politically active at a local level. Today I thought up a grant I want to write against bullying. It involves children publishing and creating digital media in support of non-violence in their new school.